American Girl

Weird how on this date, this is what's on my mind. Trisha Yearwood's song. One of my favorites growing up. Because I signed everything with X's and O's. And I wore ribbons in my hair. Not by choice, but because my mom forced me too.

But this song, it just reminds me of my life. And everything I've done. The roads I've traveled. Everything that I've done. It's that kind of song. My bestie and I used to sing it all the time! It's a good memory. Mostly. XOXO

What Hurts the Most

What hurts the most is not seeing T. Not falling asleep in his arms. Not talking through our problems. Not being together. I love him. More than I can ever explain. But we're just not working out. And it won't work out if we don't sit and talk about our problems. This could take a while. But I hope that we're able to work through all of our issues. Because I love this man more than I've ever loved anyone in my life. XOXO

I Year

It's been 1 year. We've been on this journey for one year. I can't believe it! Who would have thought that I would have stuck with it? But honestly, my bestie is such an inspiration to me. :)

The last few months have been so tough. I mean really, really tough. But you know what? I'm getting stronger. T and I, we really want to make it work out. And we trying with that. Oh, and I'm working.

So if you've been reading my blog, thank you. I'm glad you've stuck by me. I know, I'm random. And crazy. But it's nice to know that someone else out there wants to read along. XOXO

Waterfalls

This song always reminds me of my bestie. I remember when it first came out, she would sing it. And we'd dance to it. Yup, we'd wait until my mom would leave the house. Then we'd put MTV on. And just have a good time dancing.

For some reason, my bestie really liked to sing this song. And she loved to dance to it. Craziness. But that's what we'd do. Hangout, dance, sing, laugh, and be silly. Funny, how this song, of all songs, brings back such happy memories. XOXO

The Pink Dress

All I heard all weekend was, I had to see Jillian's dress. Um, who is Jillian? And what's so special about her dress...

3 of the ladies I work with, they about died! How did I not know who the bachelorette is? Um, I don't watch that show. I think it's dumb. But after hearing about her pink dress all weekend. And all day today, I had to take a look. Thank you google for finding me this picture.

And I have to say that it's a beautiful dress! Pink is not really my color. But I really like this dress. Don't ask me who she picked...I have no clue. I probably should pay more attention to some of the ladies around here. They are always on top of all the latest gossip. But this, ya, I have to admit it, it's a beautiful dress. XOXO

Double Fudge Peanut Butter Cookies

I'm still feeling down. I feel like I'm in the gutter. Just a piece of garbage. That's it. And I'm definitely not feeling like eating healthy. I saw this video. And now, all of a sudden I want to bake these cookies. Ugh! When I'm I going to feel human again?

Now I'm off to make a batch of cookies. And yes, I'm going to eat the entire batch. Maybe that will make me feel better. XOXO

Feeling Like Baking

I was going through some of our Wedding Presents. And I came across this baking set of pans. It makes me want to bake something. What? I don't know. But I'm still not feeling very well. And I'd love to get out of this funk. And baked goods usually help me feel better. Hmm, maybe I can make some boxed muffins. Or something easy like that. XOXO

Never Love You Enough

I know that T and I are going through a tough time right now. But I still love him so much. This song, it reminds me of him. And how much I love him. I just wish that he was here right now. So we could talk. But he's working. And I understand that. I just hope that we can make it past this. XOXO

Day to Night Makeup

Well, I'm still not feeling up to much. It's just been hard lately. In so many ways. But I'm trying my best to be better. You know, be a better person. A better wife. And I'm seeking some inspiration from YouTube. Weird, but true.

I like this video a lot. Because I'm not even close to being comfortable with makeup. I'm not sure why I find it so hard to deal with. But I do. And well, these videos help a lot!

I just love how easy Jazzie makes this look. If I can somehow figure out how to put on "Day" makeup, I might be able to try this. But it really does inspire me. Now, I just need somewhere to go. You know, so I can get ready. :) XOXO

The Parent Trap

The original Parent Trap is one of my favorite movies! I just LOVE it! And I definitely needed a "pick-me-up" today. So I searched around in my old VHS tapes, and hooked up the VCR. 1 bag of popcorn, 2 bags of M&Ms, and some soda rounded it all out. 2 hours later, I'm feeling a lot better. Movies like this, they just make you feel good. Even if it's only temporary. XOXO