Today is the Day

Dear Baby Girl,

I just have a feeling, that today is the day. The day that we get to meet. And I get to hold you for the very first time. That makes me so excited!

The last few months, they've been magical. Feeling you inside of me. Kicking around. Loving me. And I hope you know how much I love you. I'd do anything for you baby girl. I mean anything!

It's crazy. When I found out about you, I was scared. So scared. I wasn't sure I could do this. I didn't know if I'd be a good Mommy. But I've tried really hard. I've taken so many classes. And tried to make all the right decisions. Now all I can do is wait for you.

I love you so much! There are so many people that love you little girl! Your Uncle Barracuda thinks you're the entire world. The reason that the sun rises and sets. Really he does. He wants to be everything that your Daddy isn't. He wants to love and protect you. It's crazy how this week, today, he has to be across the country working. But he's trying to get home as quickly as he can!

And your Godparents. They love you so much. There is not a thing in the world, that they wouldn't do for us. I know this. My bestie, we've been through a lot. Our lives have been crazy. But through it all, we've had each other. And I know, she would do anything for you. She's going to be your Godmother. And I know that she is going to be amazing at loving you! Your Godfather, he's so excited to meet you too! It's so incredible to watch them both, when we get to see you. They love you so much! It's hard that everyone is away right now. But they love you! And they're trying to get hom before you are born.

If this is your birth date, you were born on an incredible day. 10-10-10. It's also your Godfather's birthday. I know that would send him over the moon, to have you born on his birthday! I just have this feeling, a good feeling, that you're coming today. I pray that our labor and delivery is safe. And that you are born healthy. Your Mommy and W love you so much! We can't wait to bring you home. To our home, to your nursery, to start our lives together.

XOXO Your Mommy and W, Your Favorite Dog. :)

41 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

We are 1 week "late." I'm not stressed. Neither is our doctor. But I am anxious! I can't wait to meet you. I know. For 41 weeks, you've been inside me, growing. But I want to hold you. I want to look into your eyes. To kiss your cheeks. And I want to just be your Mommy.

Today, our doctor scrapped my membranes. It hurt. But it was worth it. I've felt a few contractions since. And this is supposed to start things moving. You know, in the right direction. That means we could meet sometime this weekend! Now that makes me excited!

Everything is ready for you. Your nursery. Our home. W. Your Mommy. Your Nana and
Nono. Your Uncle Barracuda. We're all ready! We're just waiting for you to come. Your Nono wants to know if you can come on Sunday. A cool date! But that is all up to you!

The only thing that I want, is for you and me to be safe and healthy. We have years and years to be together. But for right now, I want you to be healthy. And safe. So if you have to "cook" for another week, I'm OK with it. Just take as much time as you need!

XOXO Your Mommy

40 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

Today is our due date. And you're just not ready to come yet. I'm OK with that. Our doctor said neither of us is ready. We might have another 2 weeks to go. But I hope that I don't have to wait that long.

We had a crazy week. I'm sorry that I get so upset when we're around your Daddy. I never wanted things to be this way. But you know what, I've learned that I can't control these things. I hope your Daddy wakes up. And decided to come see you being born. I think that is something very special. Something that would start to build your relationship together. But I'm not in charge of that.

And your Uncle Barracuda has definitely been picking up the pieces for us. He's been great. Part of me wants to let him really love and take care of us. But I want to protect you. I don't want you to get hurt. So we are just going to have to wait this out. I know he loves us. But I'm not sure if I'm ready for that kind of "Romantic Love" again.

All week, I've been going into your nursery. Sitting in my chair and looking at your crib. I can't wait until you are sleeping in there. I want to sit and read to you. To hold you. And to love you. Baby Girl, I just can't wait to meet you! I'm ready when you are!

XOXO Your Mommy

39 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

We're a week away from our due date. That excites me so much! I just can't wait to hold you. I dream about you every night. About being able to cuddle you. And just to love you.

Our week has been pretty normal and somewhat boring. We're finally sleeping a little more. Which is very nice. But I feel tired all the time. So I'm just trying to relax. Almost all week, we've been sneaking in little naps after dinner. :) I hope you're relaxing in there too!

W is getting excited too. I know he can tell we're about to have a major change. And he just loves sleeping under your crib. It's like he's practicing, for when you come home. We're all excited!

I LOVE feeling the relationship between you and W. He lays his head on my belly. And then I can feel you moving around in there. When he can, W will wiggle mommy's shirt up and put his wet nose on my belly, or lick my belly. That must really excite you. Because you will move around so much. You will kick and then W gets excited too! I just can't wait until you're big enough to play with W. He's going to be a great "Big Brother!"

I can also tell that you're getting ready to be born. I can feel you moving down. We've had some contractions on and off. I can feel you in a different place than before. Although it's a little uncomfortable, it still gets me excited! Because I know that soon, we will get to meet each other. And I'm so excited to just hold you in my arms!

Keep growing strong and healthy. W and I are so excited to meet you. But we are more than OK waiting for the day that you are ready to come. I LOVE you so much princess. I can't wait to meet you! Lots of hugs and kisses!

XOXO Your Mommy

38 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

I'm so excited! You are officially considered full term. And the doctor told me that you are ready to be born. Well, when you are ready to come. But you know what your Mommy is trying to say.

Your Uncle Barracuda and I have been working hard to put all of your presents away. We got so many amazing gifts from our Our Baby Shower. It's almost been a week. And I'm still trying to find places for everything. We're so lucky, to be this loved!

This week, well I've been trying to just relax. I hope that's making things nice and comfy for you too. I know that I haven't been sleeping much. But it's been hard to get comfy. I'm sure you're feeling the same way. I think we're starting to run out of room. But we don't have long to wait. So I think we'll be OK.

This week has been so nice. Spending lots of time with all of our friends. They love you so much already. Everyone is so excited to meet you! But no one is more excited than me. I really can't wait. I look at your nursery everyday. And I can just imagine you sleeping in your crib. And later, playing on the fun rug. :)

I can feel you move so much now. Every time you move, it's such an incredible feeling. And I look forward to all of your movements. It makes me smile so big! We've been reading more than usual too. And I think you really enjoy that. I'm glad.

Today, just seeing your gorgeous face made my day! You look so beautiful. And you were moving so much! Our doctor joked that you were having a party in your Mommy's belly. It sure did look like you were dancing around!

Well Little Girl, I can't wait to meet you! Your Mommy already LOVES you so much! I hope you know that. I'll always love and adore you. Baby Girl, you are my sunshine and my world! Stay strong and healthy. I'm counting down the days until I get to meet you!

XOXO Your Mommy

37 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

It was so great to see you today! Your Godmother came with us to our appointment. And it was so much fun! It was so amazing to watch you in there. You little mouth was open. We got pictures of what looks like you waving at us too!

Then we all went out to lunch. And we did a little bit of shopping. :) Your mommy and Godmother just couldn't resist! It was great to feel you moving around so much too! My bestie just loved feeling you kick. And little girl, you've been very active today!

But it was also nice to get all these questions answered by our doctor and my bestie. Who would have known that I've been having contractions all week. And I didn't know it. I didn't know why my belly was getting so hard. Turns out, we were having a contraction. Nothing major. And it's pretty normal.

You've also dropped. And as our doctor put it, you're getting "ready." It makes breathing a lot easier. But walking is becoming hard. I'm waddling a whole lot more! But it's OK. Because we're getting ready to meet.

Now we're at home. My bestie is doing some finishing touches to your nursery. And I'm trying to rest. Later, we're heading to your Godparents' house. And we're also going to church tonight. It's a big night. This entire weekend is a big weekend! I hope you're ready for it. I know I am!

Love you lots little girl. And I can't wait to see all of our friends this weekend. It should be lots of fun. And I know everyone is excited to see you in my belly. Until then, we're going to enjoy lots of time with my bestie. Maybe we should take a little nap too! And your job, is to get big and strong.

XOXO Your Mommy

36 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

Can you believe it? We have 4 weeks until our due date! And just over a week until our Baby Shower. I'm so excited about both of those things. For completely different reasons. But you know, I love you so much.

In 4 weeks, it's our due date. The day that you are supposed to be "fully cooked." Um, I say, however long it takes little girl, you take. If it's 3 weeks or 5 weeks! Yes, I learned today, that I could be pregnant for 42 weeks. Because you're my very first baby. So things might take a little longer. I guess we just have to wait and see. But whatever you do, stay in there and get big and healthy. And when you're ready, so am I!

Then, I've been thinking about our Baby Shower. Not for the reasons you might think. Nope. Because we have everything that you could possibly need. I've been doing a pretty good job of shopping. But I'm excited to see all of our friends. It's been tough living so far from everyone. And I don't get to see people that often. Not even your Godmother. That makes me a little sad. But I understand that we're all so busy!

So next week, we're going to go spend the weekend with your Godparents. I know your Godfather has to work. But he'll be coming back and forth. I'm really anxious to see everyone! And I know everyone is very anxious to see us! Because I keep getting great emails from everyone.

Now, I'm going to go relax. And maybe we'll have a snack. It's been so wonderful this week. Just know that in less than a month, we're going to meet each other! Little girl, you stay safe, and grow strong. W and I are so anxious for you to come!

XOXO Your Mommy

35 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

Well, we're 5 weeks away from officially meeting. And I'm really excited! I can't wait to hold you in my arms! Everything is ready for you. W and I, we graduate soon from our Baby and Dog class. Your mommy is also making her sacraments in a couple of weeks. And our baby shower is almost here! So exciting!

Today, we spent the entire day with Uncle Barracuda. He came to our doctor's appointment with us. Then we had some fun. We went shopping for you. Then we had some lunch. Did some more shopping. Had some dinner. Went for some dessert. And watched a few movies at home. It was a lot of fun. And a much needed break for your mommy. :)

I can really tell that you like your Uncle Barracuda a lot too! You kick for him. Every time he puts his hand on my belly, you kick for him. And he loves it! He loves to read to you. And generally, he's just in love with you!

It's crazy, because everything that you're daddy isn't, your Uncle Barracuda is. And he doesn't have to do these things. But that's how much he loves you! It almost makes me sad. But I'm glad that your Uncle Barracuda is here for you. For us actually. Maybe, well, maybe now you will understand. Not all men are bad. Some are really great guys. Your mommy has just had really bad luck in the generally area of men. Starting with your grandpa. But there are some really nice guys out there. It just takes a while to find a really great one. So when you're old enough, please be patient. :)

Well baby girl. It's about time we head to bed. Your mommy is quite tired. W is already snoring away. And we're all just so excited to meet you! My Love, you are the sunshine in your mommy's life. Love you lots!

XOXO Your Mommy

34 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

We had a great appointment today. You smiled and waved at me. And it made me cry. I just can't wait to hold you in my arms. I'm so in love with you!

I've been so tired and hungry all week. But it's definitely worth it. For you. And for you to be healthy. I'd go through anything just to make sure you are one healthy and happy baby girl! But you look beautiful already. :)

This week, we haven't been doing much. Besides working. Your Uncle Barracuda really wants us to go see him and your Auntie Lola, and your Uncle Guy. We're going to surprise them. And we're leaving later with some other friends. It should be a lot of fun!

Yes, I've decided we're going to have a little fun. Our doctor OK'd it. And the flying. So we're a OK! But this will probably be our last trip until you're born. I don't mind. I really enjoy being home with you! And W of course!

Speaking of our favorite pup, we're about to graduate from our Baby and Dog Class. We've had so much fun! I hope you enjoyed it too! I know all of this work is going to pay off. And I just want you to know how excited we are to meet you! :) Now, your mommy needs to go pack for our trip.

XOXO Your Mommy

33 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

This has been a rather uneventful week. But I've enjoyed it a lot! Because I've been home more. And, we've gotten to spend a lot of time together. Feeling each other out! Literally!

You have been moving around so much. Getting into all of your mommy's insides. I swear, you are either pulling on my ribs. Or kicking my parts. It's interesting to feel. A little weird. But really fun!

I hope you are enjoying everything inside. I can only imagine how warm, safe, and sound it is. Your mommy is trying her best to make it the safest and healthiest place for you to grow.

This week, we've been hanging out and listening to a lot of music. And reading. I know you like that. And Uncle Barracuda just loves talking to you! I know that you are really enjoying that. Because you kick and get so excited to hear his voice. :)

Your mommy is also doing more shopping. I know. I never liked to shop for myself. But I just can't help it. When I see all these adorable dresses, and ruffles, and everything so cute! I just have to buy something for my precious little girl. :)

That's been our week. Not too much crazy stuff. But a nice peaceful, summer week. Eating lots of fresh tomatoes. Enjoying evenings outside. And just being our little family! I can't wait to hold you!

XOXO Your Mommy

PS One of your future best friends was born this week too! He is adorable! Who knows...one day, he might be the love of your life. I can't wait for all of our future playdates. Mommy :)

32 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

Mommy has been very emotional this week. I'm sure you've noticed. Sorry about that. I'm just not sure what's wrong with me. Everything makes me cry. Whether I'm sad, lonely, or even happy. I'm just emotional.

And we've had some crazy cravings all week long! We finally got our chili dog today for lunch. Wasn't it good? I know I enjoyed it. I've been trying really hard to eat super healthy. It's a hard task for your momma. Because I don't know how to cook. Your grandma never taught me. She doesn't really know how to cook either. So there you go. But today, I decided we could have a chili dog. After all the veggies we've been eating.

And your mommy is getting ready for your big arrival! 2 months, we are 2 months away from finally meeting. I'm super excited! Your Uncle Guy, he wants us to wait until his birthday! That's like an extra 10 days! I'm not sure if we can do that. But whatever it takes for you to come to the world healthy and happy, I'm ready for it!

W and I are getting so anxious too! We're almost done with our class. And I know that he is going to love you so much! He already sleeps under your crib. And he really likes to feel you kick. I have to admit it, so do I. But we know you need to cook a little more. And we're OK with that. Just know, we all love you so much!

XOXO Your Mommy

31 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

Well, our cravings are through the roof! I've been craving everything under the sun! But I'm trying to eat healthy for the 2 of us. I'm not going to lie, we do have a little something sweet every day. But you really seem to enjoy that. I hope I don't regret that later on. :)

This week, I've felt very alone. I don't know why. Maybe because your Uncle Barracuda couldn't come to see us. And I really missed that. Or maybe it was because we haven't had the chance to see your Auntie Lola and Uncle Guy. I'm sure that hasn't helped. Or maybe because all of our friends live at least 2 hours away. But it's been lonely around here.

We also had a tough Wednesday. But I don't want you to have to worry about that. You let me do the worrying. Your job is to grow, be healthy, and be happy. Remember that. That is your only job. And that will be your only job for a long time. I'm sorry your mommy and daddy screwed up so bad. It wasn't your fault. We love you!

But you, W, and me have had a great week! We've enjoyed lots of our fresh tomatoes. And just being together. I love feeling you inside my belly. The way you move. And even your kicks. It's amazing! And when your mommy needs a little smile, you seem to know. Because you do this fun flirty thing inside of my belly. It always makes me laugh!

XOXO Your Mommy

30 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

I can't believe we're only 10 weeks away from meeting! It makes me so happy!!! This week, we've been pretty relaxed. Actually, your mommy has been pretty tired. So I've been sleeping a lot. But I think that is good for us. At least my doctor agrees.

Most nights, I get home from work, and we eat dinner. W loves to just chill with us. He lays his head on my belly. I think he just wants to feel you. He's going to be a great big brother. You know, even if he's a furry, 4 legged brother. :)

We had a glucose test today too. That stuff is so horrible to drink. I'm sure you got to taste it too. What did you think? I took everything I had to keep it down. But I know that you needed it. We needed it. So that we could see if everything was good. And it was!

This week, I've been dreaming more and more about you. About your little fingers and toes. I just can't wait to meet you. But you take your time. You cook all the way! And when you're healthy and ready, your mommy will be waiting to hold you and kiss you! I love you little angel!

XOXO Your Mommy

29 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

I've been thinking more and more about you this week. Ever since we went to go visit Baby G, I just want to meet you. It's so nice that so many of my friends are having babies. That means, lots and lots of playdates for you! 7 of my friends are having or have had a baby recently. Little one, you are going to have lots of good friends! I just have to keep you away from the boys when you get bigger. :)

This week, we haven't been up to much. I'm still a little confused with the whole time thing. I don't know why. But in case you've noticed, yup, we're going to bed later. Because I'm just not tired. Then your mommy has to drag herself out of bed in the mornings. That's why we've been taking so many naps in the evenings.

But I'm thinking you don't mind much. Neither does W. He likes our naps. I also find him sleeping under your crib a lot. I think he's just practicing for when you come home. W and I also signed up for a baby and dog class. It's in a few weeks. And I think it will be fun for all of us. :)

See how much we love you little girl! We just can't wait for you to get here. I know W is going to just love you too. And be so protect over you. We're counting down the days until October!

XOXO Your Mommy

28 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

We're 1 week closer. And your mommy is getting excited! I just can't believe we've made it this far! But you're so healthy. And that is all I want. A healthy baby!

I know this has been a tough week. Your mommy has cried too much. And you're probably confused in there. But I'm making things better for us. I promise. I promise you are going to have a better life than I had. I just need to get this together.

We had a great holiday weekend last weekend. We spent lots of time with your Auntie Lola, Uncle Guy, and Uncle Barracuda. Your Uncle Guy had a really great weekend. And it was neat to be there. One day, you'll get to go to those fun things too! And celebrate his successes.

And we just hung out on Sunday. Your Auntie Lola is the best cook ever! And she made us an amazing meal. We spent lots of time with our friends. Both the furry kind, and the 2 legged! :)

This week, one of my good friends C had her little girl. And we went to go visit her. Just holding her little girl made me think of you. I can't wait to be able to hold you in my arms. And I just can't wait to see you 2 playing together. Yes, your mommy has lots of friends having babies too. And we're already talking about play dates. I'm so excited!

You keep growing strong. And leave the rest to me. I know things are going to work out good for us. Because I've been praying to God for it. But I really can't wait to meet you!

XOXO Your Mommy

27 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

27 weeks! It feels just like yesterday that our little test turned positive. Now, we only have 13 weeks to go! I still can't believe it. But you take all the time you need. Grow big and strong. Your mommy is waiting to meet you. But I want you healthy!

This week, we're hanging out with all your favorite people, you Auntie Lola, Uncle Guy, and Uncle Barracuda. W is with us too. And all his friends. We're in sunny Florida. And we're really enjoying ourselves.

Today, your "Nana" and I flew home. We left really early. Because we had a doctor's appointment. We got there just in time. And we got to see you. You look beautiful already. And you are starting to look like your big sister. We were so excited to see you and hear your heart beat!

Now, we're back in Florida. Enjoying the warm weather. Sitting with our feet in the sand. We really need to rest up. Tonight and tomorrow are going to be so busy and exciting! I hope you enjoy all of this. And remember, your mommy loves you!

XOXO Mommy

22 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

I'm so happy today! Your Auntie C came to visit us. And she spent the entire day with us! We went to our doctor's appointment. And your Auntie C got to see you, precious girl! She was so happy. And so was I. :)

We also went to lunch today. And we did lots of shopping for you. Your Auntie C is already spoiling you so much! You have so many cute outfits and toys now. Auntie C and I can't wait to play with you! Not only did Auntie C spoil you, she also spoiled me too! She bought your Mommy some clothes to wear while you grow big and strong. We're so lucky to have her.

But not all of this week was fun and easy. I watched your Daddy and your big sister Baby M. Your Daddy took her to work with him this week. Your sister is gorgeous! And now, I kinda know what you are going to look like. I just hope that your Daddy will be as loving with you, as he is with Baby M.

We've also spent lots of time with your Godparents. Your Godmother is performing. And your Godfather and Uncle Barracuda are working hard. We've had a lot of fun with all of them! One day, you'll learn the importance of good friends. They really do help you through all of life. The good and the bad.

But most of what this week has been about it, is that you're growing. And I can tell. My belly has popped out. And I'm getting to see more of what it's like to be pregnant. I LOVE it! But I'm pretty sure, I'm going to need to do a lot of shopping for maternity clothes. But I'm more than OK with that. Because I just want you to grow big and healthy.

That's been our week. Traveling. Spending lots of time with our friends and family. And just being happy. That's the important part of life. And I'm going to show you how to enjoy the people that love you. That's really important. Stay growing good like you are. We have 18 more weeks before we get to meet!

XOXO Your Mommy

19 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

Yes, I can finally call you my Baby Girl! We're 100% sure this week. At week 16, we knew that you were a girl. But this week, my doctor said that you are positively a baby girl. :)

This has been such an amazing week! One that I wish we could share with my Grandma and my brother. That would be your great-Grandma and Uncle B. I miss them so much! And this week, I really wish that they were here with us.

This weekend is Mother's Day. It makes me miss my grandma so much. But there is just no way for me to get in touch with her. That makes me really sad. She was a lot like a mom to me. And I really want to share this part of my life with her. Hopefully one day, we will get to share. I want her to meet you!

This has been a crazy and fun week! Lots of stuff is going on. I have your name all picked out. And I ordered everything for your room. It gets me so excited to meet you. I just can't wait to hold you. And to look into your eyes. I really hope that you get your daddy's blue eyes. :)

I'm showing more and more. I think people now know that I'm pregnant and not just fat. It makes me laugh. But for the longest time, I think people figured I was just fat. It's nice to hear people ask when I'm due. And I'm pretty sure that I'm feeling you kick. It feels so amazing! I just love the feeling. :)

Well Little Girl, it's time for your Mommy to make lunch. I'm pretty sure that we're both hungry. And I'm thinking that we could also use a nap. I know I'm tired. W is sitting here watching me type away. And it just makes me think of you. I can't wait until the 2 of you get to play together!

XOXO Mommy

6 Weeks

Dear Baby,

Well, it's official. You're in there. At least that's what all the tests keep telling me. For about 2 weeks, I've thought I might be pregnant. I've been really tired. And feeling really sick. Mornings are almost unbearable. But it's OK. As long as you're in there. And growing like you should.

My breasts are HUGE and sore! They really do hurt. I keep trying to dress in clothes to hide. But I'm not doing so well there. Today, I took a few pregnancy tests. All confirming what I already knew. Now, I just need to tell your daddy. And all of our friends and family.

Your parents have made a bit of a mess out of their lives. It's not your fault. Please don't think it is. I already love you so much. Even while I'm throwing up my guts of the toilet. Because baby, you're special. The only one like you. Thank you for growing in your mommy. And staying safe. Your only job for the next few months is to grow strong and be healthy. Leave the rest up to me! I promise, I'm trying to make this better.

XOXO Your Mommy