19 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

Yes, I can finally call you my Baby Girl! We're 100% sure this week. At week 16, we knew that you were a girl. But this week, my doctor said that you are positively a baby girl. :)

This has been such an amazing week! One that I wish we could share with my Grandma and my brother. That would be your great-Grandma and Uncle B. I miss them so much! And this week, I really wish that they were here with us.

This weekend is Mother's Day. It makes me miss my grandma so much. But there is just no way for me to get in touch with her. That makes me really sad. She was a lot like a mom to me. And I really want to share this part of my life with her. Hopefully one day, we will get to share. I want her to meet you!

This has been a crazy and fun week! Lots of stuff is going on. I have your name all picked out. And I ordered everything for your room. It gets me so excited to meet you. I just can't wait to hold you. And to look into your eyes. I really hope that you get your daddy's blue eyes. :)

I'm showing more and more. I think people now know that I'm pregnant and not just fat. It makes me laugh. But for the longest time, I think people figured I was just fat. It's nice to hear people ask when I'm due. And I'm pretty sure that I'm feeling you kick. It feels so amazing! I just love the feeling. :)

Well Little Girl, it's time for your Mommy to make lunch. I'm pretty sure that we're both hungry. And I'm thinking that we could also use a nap. I know I'm tired. W is sitting here watching me type away. And it just makes me think of you. I can't wait until the 2 of you get to play together!

XOXO Mommy

My Baby is a...

GIRL!!! Can you tell by the picture? For almost 3 weeks, I've known. But the doctor wanted to make sure. And today, I was told that 100%, my Baby is a girl! :)

I've ordered her bedding. And picked out a name. I shared her name with Baby C's Daddy. I thought he would like it. Her middle name is after T's grandma. I think that's really special.

I'm just so excited to be having a little girl. I have a little brother and a younger male cousin. But I've never been around little girls. This is going to be so amazing! I've already been shopping. Buying Baby C so many cute dresses. I can't wait to buy her dolls, hair bows, and cute shoes.

I can tell, this is the beginning to an amazing chapter in my life. No matter what has happened between T and I, we made a beautiful little girl. One that I'm going to love every day of my life. And I just can't wait to meet her! XOXO

Consider Me Gone

This song, it comes to mind when I think of my hubby. Did he really call me? And say all those things? Like these 2 babies are all my fault? He's the one that cheated. Not me. I'm done. Beyond done to be honest. And he has the nerve to ask me to wait for him. To let him try this out with his other "Baby Mama." If that doesn't work, he wants to give us a try. I can't be serious. But he is. Oh brother! I'm done. I just can't do this anymore... XOXO

So Stylish!

I wish I was more stylish like Trina. She is just so stylish! And is always so well put together. I especially like the way she dresses for work. Because it's professional, but still funky. Me? I'm not so good at these things. Add in pregnancy, and well I'm not too motivated to be stylish. I wear black dress pants almost every day. I can't lie. I have about 10 pair that are all exactly the same...

But Trina just inspired me. I'm going to try and put some more time and effort into my outfits. Because Trina really does always look nice. I really like all of her jewelry too! Look at this video! But I guess this means, I'm going to have to go shopping. Hmmm XOXO

Don't Cheat in Our Hometown

This song, it sums up the way I feel about my hubby's actions. I'm shocked. Sad. Mad. Everything. Why? I guess there are some things I will never really understand. Like him telling me that we were going to work through all of our problems. Then I find out he's been seeing not 1, but 2 different women. Well, that I know of. Nothing would surprise me at this point. Let's just be that honest. I guess, this is just the end. The end to our story as a couple. But not to our story together. That is still being written... XOXO

Great Read!

Since this is my 1st pregnancy, I'm taking advice from anyone one that is willing to give it to me. I'm not lying. And my bestie, she got me this book. I stayed up late last night reading it. Laughing, panicking, and crying. This is going to be some adventure. And I can't wait to experience it all! But if you're pregnant, this is definitely the book for you. Jenny is great at writing. I hear that there is another book that she wrote. I'm going to have to get that one too! :) XOXO

Happy Valentine's Day T!!!

T,

I know that we've had a rough few months. But I LOVE YOU! You're still the love of my life. The ONLY man that I want in my life. :)

I really do hope that you have an amazing day! I know that you have to work. We're both going to be working. But I want you to enjoy this day as much as possible. I want you to know how much I love you. And that I'll always be here for you. I'm your wife. Forever. And I know we can work through all of this. We can find our way back to each other. And we can be just as happy as we were a year ago.

I wish that I could make you some amazing meal. That I had gotten to wake up in your arms. But that's just not were we are right now. But I do want to see you. I want to have dinner with you. I want to share in your life. I want us to have a life together again. I LOVE YOU HUBBY!!!

XOXO Your Wifey

6 Weeks

Dear Baby,

Well, it's official. You're in there. At least that's what all the tests keep telling me. For about 2 weeks, I've thought I might be pregnant. I've been really tired. And feeling really sick. Mornings are almost unbearable. But it's OK. As long as you're in there. And growing like you should.

My breasts are HUGE and sore! They really do hurt. I keep trying to dress in clothes to hide. But I'm not doing so well there. Today, I took a few pregnancy tests. All confirming what I already knew. Now, I just need to tell your daddy. And all of our friends and family.

Your parents have made a bit of a mess out of their lives. It's not your fault. Please don't think it is. I already love you so much. Even while I'm throwing up my guts of the toilet. Because baby, you're special. The only one like you. Thank you for growing in your mommy. And staying safe. Your only job for the next few months is to grow strong and be healthy. Leave the rest up to me! I promise, I'm trying to make this better.

XOXO Your Mommy

The Munsters in Color

Do you remember my post about the Munsters? Ya, it wasn't the best time in my life. But I like this show. I never knew that the pilot was filmed in color. After searching on YouTube, I found a few clips in color. I think it's just weird. Black and white just seems more appropriate for them. :) XOXO

The Song...

When I was little, my dad was a security guard. And he thought he was all that and a bag of tricks. No lie! I swear, he used to act like he was the big sheriff in town.

And when Cops started, he wouldn't let me watch it. Why? Not because of the violence. But because of the theme song...Inner Circle. I don't know what he thought. Maybe I'd turn into some gang banger. You know, just by listening to the song. I'm not sure. But it was pretty crazy!

Now, Cops and AMW are 2 of my favorite shows to watch. Why? I don't know. But I really like watching them. And every time I hear this song, I think about when I was little. Um, I think I turned out OK. Maybe it was because I wasn't allowed to listen to this song. :P XOXO