26

Tomorrow I turn 26. It's a little scary. Especially since T and I are fully into this relationship. I almost feel like saying, what the heck is going on?

But for the first time in my entire life, I feel like my life is in a good spot. I have a man that loves me. We're happy. And we're living well.

It's funny how life works out. But I've never been happier. Even if my mom won't speak to me. Or if I haven't seen my dad in years. Those are their issues. They're the ones that want to be cut off from me. Not the other way around.

But the last few months have been great. They've shown me how much you can be loved and respected. That's all I've ever wanted. I already feel like I've had the best birthday present ever! XOXO

Neutral Makeup

Easy enough. That's how Kandee makes makeup look. I really wish I was that good at makeup. But I really like this color. And since T is working. And my bestie, well I assume she is working. I'm on my own today. I'm thinking, this would be a great day to experiment with some makeup. You know, if I end up looking like a clown, no one is home. And I can have it all cleaned up by the time T gets home. By the way, isnt Kandee so sweet? :) XOXO

No Scrubs

I went to go visit my bestie today. And when I got there, she was working out. A really tough workout. Lots of weights and cardio. The kind of workout that would make me cry. And what is she doing? Singing "No Scrubs."

Apparently, that's part of her singing exercises or whatever. But this song? Of all songs. Made me laugh. Because she really liked TLC when we were little. And she was always singing and dancing to their music. Oh, and the group has an inside meaning, with our current group of friends...

But it was hilarious. She was really into it. The music was blasting and she was just working out. Her Guy was watching her. And she didn't notice him. He had that crook'd smile of his plastered across his face. And she was just working her little rear end off! That's my bestie. XOXO

Breathe

I kinda feel like right now is so much more stressful than back in October. T's job is pretty crazy. And they're gearing up for a new year. He works such long hours right now. They're doing a lot of 1 day trips. And it's just tiring. He's already exhausted! And they're 1st "real day" of work isn't for another 2 weeks...

My bestie, she is so much better at this than I am. Her boyfriend does a heck of a lot more. A lot more traveling for sure! But she keeps it altogether. And I don't know how. She has suitcases packed for both of them. Labeled with what trip they're going on. She's working full time. And going to college. How in the world does she do it?

She came by to see me. And she could definitely tell that I was going a little nuts here. So she helped me to pack. Because we're going to FL for a few weeks. The guys are working out there. She helped me to get some things in order. And now, I have T's suitcase in the middle of our bedroom. All his clothes are folded on our bed. And I'm just trying to figure this out.

My bestie brought me over some beautiful flowers. And told me just to breathe. To relax and to take it one day at a time. That's what I'm going to try and do. Because if she can manage. So can I. I think I just need to get better organized. XOXO

Eyebrows

I never realized how important good eyebrows are. But now that I've seen Kandee's videos, I realize I should probably give my eyebrows a little TLC. They're very light, because I'm blond. And their shape...well it's lacking. Yes, it's a bad situation! I better get busy. Or find someone to help me out. :) XOXO

Our Home

I don't think I ever mentioned it on here, but T and I moved back in November. When we started to date, he lived in a townhouse. And it was really nice. His buddy owns it. And because he works for his buddy, he just let him live there. That was in August.

When I moved in, T wanted something more for us. So he bought a house. Nothing too fancy or crazy. Just a nice house. Much nicer than anywhere I've ever lived. And we moved. It was crazy and chaotic. And had to be done quickly. Since we're on the road more than half of the week.

I also earned that T was having a house built. All of the house plans were already made, and most of the house was built. Like all the walls were up. It looked like a house from the outside. But from the inside, it was definitely a work in progress. They said it would take at least 4 months to finish. But it might be closer to 6 months if the weather didn't cooperate.

So why did T buy the house we are living in now? Because he wanted a place for us. He wanted more room. And more privacy. To me, it never really mattered. I mean, when I lived at home, before I was 18, it was my mom, step-dad, my step-sister, my 2 step-brothers, my little brother, my grandma, and me. And our house was not that big!

Then when I moved out, I lived with 5 girls. In a 3 bedroom apartment. Yes, there were 6 of us! And only 1 1/2 baths. It was nuts! But I really liked living with my friends. So you can see, I've never been one to live in big houses. Or to live in a fancy place. So I thought it was weird that T was buying a house for us to live in for 4-6 months.

But that's what he did. And we moved. But since then, we've been working on our house. Yes, I said our house. Because T wants the new, big house, to be in both of our names. Crazy! I never even owned a new car before I met him. Can you tell how low key I am?

When we started to date, T wanted my opinions on things. I thought it was a little weird. But together, we picked out the tile, colors, carpets, cabinets, counters. All of that stuff. And today, we got to go see the progress on our house. Looks like, we'll get to move sometime at the end of February or the beginning of March.

And to be honest, I'm both excited and scared. I'm excited because it's going to be our home. Together. Something we'll work on together. And enjoy together. But I'm also scared because it's so big!

Not only is it big. But it's expensive. Oh, and I'm not good at decorating and all of that. When I lived with my friends, I paid one of them to decorate my room. And when we moved into this house, my bestie came to help us put it together. I swear, she should be an interior designer!

But now, she is working on her and her guy's place. He had this HUGE house built for them. And she is just trying to get their house in order. So I don't want to bother her. Although, I know that she would come and help in a heartbeat.

So where do you begin? We're going to go look at bedroom furniture sometime this week. And T has all the electronics picked out. That's as far as we've gotten. We still have to pick paint colors and some of the finishing things for the actual house. Then the hard work starts for me. Making the house into our home. XOXO

Homemade Granola

I had never thought about making my own granola. But my bestie and I were talking about it the other day. I went to go visit her. And she was having fruit and granola as a snack. The granola was so good. Yes, I just had to taste it!

It got me thinking. I want to try some. I'm used to the stuff you buy at the store. Not so healthy. But the one that my bestie made, it was so yummy! I found this video. And now, I really need to go grocery shopping. I've never wanted to make granola so much! XOXO

Missing My Grandma

I know. It must sound very childish. But I miss my grandma. I haven't seen her since the summer. Before T and I started dating. Before I moved.

Since then, my mom has gotten really nasty. And she won't let me see my grandma. My grandma and I talked 1 day on the phone. Then my mom took away her phone. How horrible is that? I tell you, my mom has a lot of issues that she needs to work out.

But I miss my grandma. We were always so close. And I wish that I could share this part of my life with her. I wish that I could introduce her to T. He is so amazing. And I know that they would get along so well. :)

There's not much I can do. Except keep her in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that I get the chance to see or even just speak with her really soon. Because I really miss my grandma. She was really like a mom to me and my brother, when we were growing up. She will always have a special place in my heart. XOXO

Healthy Tips

You know, I want to be healthy. And I found this video with all kinds of healthy tips. Some don't sound very good. But others, sound really yummy. There are some little changes that I can make to the way we eat. Just by buying a few different things.

I've been good so far. And I've really been trying to eat better. I've even been working out. No running. Because the weather is just so wintery here. Instead, I've been doing some workout tapes. But I might try the treadmill today. :) XOXO

Love

I have say this, I LOVE this color! My bestie gave me this nail polish before the holidays. It's amazing. I'm not much for painting my nails. But this is amazing! I really just love the color. And I've been wearing it pretty much ever since. :) XOXO

My Goals...

This picture...it inspired one of my goals for the year. To get into better shape. I mean, I'll never be Cameron Diaz. But I could lose some weight.

My bestie and I were talking, not long ago, about some yummy healthy recipes. She's going to school to be a nutritionist person and doctor. So she is really good with all this food and health stuff. I'm going to be relying on her a lot!

I'm also determined to also learn how to cook. I really need to. Oh, and I want to wear a 2 piece this year. Lots of goals. But I'm going to accomplish them. I'm going to go running with my bestie. And try to workout every day. I mean, what else do I do? Nothing really. It's so weird to not work. Maybe this will really be beneficial to me. :) XOXO