Today is the Day

Dear Baby Girl,

I just have a feeling, that today is the day. The day that we get to meet. And I get to hold you for the very first time. That makes me so excited!

The last few months, they've been magical. Feeling you inside of me. Kicking around. Loving me. And I hope you know how much I love you. I'd do anything for you baby girl. I mean anything!

It's crazy. When I found out about you, I was scared. So scared. I wasn't sure I could do this. I didn't know if I'd be a good Mommy. But I've tried really hard. I've taken so many classes. And tried to make all the right decisions. Now all I can do is wait for you.

I love you so much! There are so many people that love you little girl! Your Uncle Barracuda thinks you're the entire world. The reason that the sun rises and sets. Really he does. He wants to be everything that your Daddy isn't. He wants to love and protect you. It's crazy how this week, today, he has to be across the country working. But he's trying to get home as quickly as he can!

And your Godparents. They love you so much. There is not a thing in the world, that they wouldn't do for us. I know this. My bestie, we've been through a lot. Our lives have been crazy. But through it all, we've had each other. And I know, she would do anything for you. She's going to be your Godmother. And I know that she is going to be amazing at loving you! Your Godfather, he's so excited to meet you too! It's so incredible to watch them both, when we get to see you. They love you so much! It's hard that everyone is away right now. But they love you! And they're trying to get hom before you are born.

If this is your birth date, you were born on an incredible day. 10-10-10. It's also your Godfather's birthday. I know that would send him over the moon, to have you born on his birthday! I just have this feeling, a good feeling, that you're coming today. I pray that our labor and delivery is safe. And that you are born healthy. Your Mommy and W love you so much! We can't wait to bring you home. To our home, to your nursery, to start our lives together.

XOXO Your Mommy and W, Your Favorite Dog. :)

39 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

We're a week away from our due date. That excites me so much! I just can't wait to hold you. I dream about you every night. About being able to cuddle you. And just to love you.

Our week has been pretty normal and somewhat boring. We're finally sleeping a little more. Which is very nice. But I feel tired all the time. So I'm just trying to relax. Almost all week, we've been sneaking in little naps after dinner. :) I hope you're relaxing in there too!

W is getting excited too. I know he can tell we're about to have a major change. And he just loves sleeping under your crib. It's like he's practicing, for when you come home. We're all excited!

I LOVE feeling the relationship between you and W. He lays his head on my belly. And then I can feel you moving around in there. When he can, W will wiggle mommy's shirt up and put his wet nose on my belly, or lick my belly. That must really excite you. Because you will move around so much. You will kick and then W gets excited too! I just can't wait until you're big enough to play with W. He's going to be a great "Big Brother!"

I can also tell that you're getting ready to be born. I can feel you moving down. We've had some contractions on and off. I can feel you in a different place than before. Although it's a little uncomfortable, it still gets me excited! Because I know that soon, we will get to meet each other. And I'm so excited to just hold you in my arms!

Keep growing strong and healthy. W and I are so excited to meet you. But we are more than OK waiting for the day that you are ready to come. I LOVE you so much princess. I can't wait to meet you! Lots of hugs and kisses!

XOXO Your Mommy

38 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

I'm so excited! You are officially considered full term. And the doctor told me that you are ready to be born. Well, when you are ready to come. But you know what your Mommy is trying to say.

Your Uncle Barracuda and I have been working hard to put all of your presents away. We got so many amazing gifts from our Our Baby Shower. It's almost been a week. And I'm still trying to find places for everything. We're so lucky, to be this loved!

This week, well I've been trying to just relax. I hope that's making things nice and comfy for you too. I know that I haven't been sleeping much. But it's been hard to get comfy. I'm sure you're feeling the same way. I think we're starting to run out of room. But we don't have long to wait. So I think we'll be OK.

This week has been so nice. Spending lots of time with all of our friends. They love you so much already. Everyone is so excited to meet you! But no one is more excited than me. I really can't wait. I look at your nursery everyday. And I can just imagine you sleeping in your crib. And later, playing on the fun rug. :)

I can feel you move so much now. Every time you move, it's such an incredible feeling. And I look forward to all of your movements. It makes me smile so big! We've been reading more than usual too. And I think you really enjoy that. I'm glad.

Today, just seeing your gorgeous face made my day! You look so beautiful. And you were moving so much! Our doctor joked that you were having a party in your Mommy's belly. It sure did look like you were dancing around!

Well Little Girl, I can't wait to meet you! Your Mommy already LOVES you so much! I hope you know that. I'll always love and adore you. Baby Girl, you are my sunshine and my world! Stay strong and healthy. I'm counting down the days until I get to meet you!

XOXO Your Mommy

Baby Showers in Review

This past weekend, Baby C and I had our Baby Showers. Yes, we had 2! I still can't believe it!

My bestie and some friends had planned our Baby Shower for Saturday. I knew about it. And I was so excited! Not about getting presents. I had already bought, pretty much everything that Baby C needs. But I was so excited to see all of my friends. Especially my bestie! It seems like it's been forever since I've seen my friends. Living out here, I don't get to see them often. And that's tough.

I got to spend Friday with my bestie. And that was just incredible! We went to my doctor's appointment, out to lunch, and just hung out. We did some shopping. And I really enjoyed all of it! We even managed a mani-pedi too. :)

My bestie ended up making dinner for us that night. Because I fell asleep late in the afternoon. Barracuda and her Guy were working. And we were all meeting up later that night. The 2 of us really did enjoy ourselves.

I spent the weekend at my bestie and her Guy's house. That's where the Baby Shower was going to be. And Saturday morning, the house was buzzing! The guys left early in the morning. They had a way to go for work. And there were so many people helping to get ready for our Baby Shower!

I was really excited to share this with C too! She made the trip out here just for the Baby Shower. And it was nice to spend time with her. C and W were our only family that came. But it was such a blessing to have them here. Yes, I consider my dog family! C is so excited to meet her new niece too!

I honestly just enjoyed being around all of my friends. It was like a reunion of the "Wives Club." :) Yes, all of our husbands work together. And we all travel together. It was just nice to be with them again. We sat around laughing and talking. I got to change some diapers. Yes, some of my friends have newborns! :)

The pile of gifts was HUGE! I was feeling a bit intimidated. So many amazing things. I really do feel blessed. There were lots of beautiful presents. So many clothes! Baby C might not even get to wear everything! She could possibly wear a new outfit everyday!

But the most special gifts were handmade. My bestie and her mom made some of the most beautiful things. I wish I could find my camera. I took pictures of everything. I mean, these are gorgeous blankets, sweater sets, booties, everything! I even got my tutu for Baby C! :)

On Sunday, the guys were back. They actually got back late, late Saturday night. And my bestie and all the guys planned a "Surprise BBQ" for us! Yes, all the people I used to work with, were able to come on Sunday. It was another Baby Shower! I really have missed all of these people. It feels amazing to be part of their lives again. I'm so lucky and blessed, to have such amazing friends. :)

Sunday was really about just being with friends. We also got another mountain of gifts. And now that I'm thinking about it, I need to start writing out Thank yous. But it's so amazing to just spend time with my friends. I've missed them so much! And they love my Baby Girl so much!!!

After everyone had left, and all had calmed down, my bestie and her guy surprised me again! They put together an entire nursery in their home! For my Baby Girl! :) They're going to be Baby C's Godparents. And they are planning to steal away, my Little Girl, from time to time. Everything that a baby could possibly need, is in that nursery. It's beautiful! I can tell, they love Baby C as much as I do.

As you can tell, we are so lucky and loved! Life has not been too kind to Baby C and I. But God has sent us some amazing people. People that love us. And want to take care of us. We are truly blessed. I just wish I could find my camera. We took some amazing pictures! And I want to say a special and HUGE Thank you to my bestie! You are the best friend anyone could ever have! :) XOXO

Little White Church

This song reminds me so much of my bestie and her guy. I don't know why. Maybe because the 2 of them are in no way, shape or form, anxious about tying the knot. Their relationship, as is, works for them. And I think that's a great thing. And it's amazing how they stick to their guns.

But baby C and I might just love to go to a wedding. Maybe they're waiting on her to be born. Anyway that you look at it, I can't wait! One day, those 2 will get married. They were made for each other. Like no other 2 people that I've ever known. They're amazing! And I'm so happy to be in their lives. :) XOXO

Consider Me Gone

This song, it comes to mind when I think of my hubby. Did he really call me? And say all those things? Like these 2 babies are all my fault? He's the one that cheated. Not me. I'm done. Beyond done to be honest. And he has the nerve to ask me to wait for him. To let him try this out with his other "Baby Mama." If that doesn't work, he wants to give us a try. I can't be serious. But he is. Oh brother! I'm done. I just can't do this anymore... XOXO

Happy Birthday Hubby!!!

Happy Birthday T!!!

Today is my hubby's birthday. And I know that the last few months haven't been the best. We've struggled. We've fought. We've separated. But through it all, one thing has never changed, just how much I love him. :)

I know with lots of hard work, we can be back to where we were. But just know that I love you with all of my heart. Know that there is still nothing in the world that I wouldn't do for you. I'm looking forward to tonight. And taking you out for a fun night. It's about time that we just hangout and just enjoy each other. And of course, to celebrate you and your birthday!

This is such a special day. It's a big day for my hubby. An important birthday. And just a special day to celebrate the man that I love. He's amazing. Completely amazing. And I love him so much! I hope I can make this a good birthday for him. XOXO

Never Love You Enough

I know that T and I are going through a tough time right now. But I still love him so much. This song, it reminds me of him. And how much I love him. I just wish that he was here right now. So we could talk. But he's working. And I understand that. I just hope that we can make it past this. XOXO

Good News

I got some really good news tonight. It was totally unexpected. But I'm so excited about it! Doesn't the saying go something like, "All good things in life, come as a surprise."

Well, I'm surprised. And so excited! You'll just have to come back later in the week to find out what it's all about. Until then, I'm going to head to bed. Sweet dreams! XOXO

This is the Life!

T and I are sitting on the beach. Enjoying the sun, sand, and the water. I feel like we could be on a desert island. It's just perfect out here! It feels like the only "real" communication should be done with a letter in a bottle. :)

We're just enjoying it all. Including each other's company. It feels like a "Mini Honeymoon." And I'm definitely loving it! A nice little trip, in the middle of all of our crazy traveling. I know T is really enjoying it. And so am I! I just love being married to this man! And being Mrs. M! XOXO

Dreaming of Sun and Sand

Well, we made it to sunny Florida! Tomorrow morning, I want nothing more than to lay out on the beach. I wonder if I can find a hammock. That would be nice.

T and I are here for just a couple of days. Literally, just a couple of days. T has to be back at work on the 2nd, and I'll be flying home then. But we thought we'd come spend a couple of days together and alone. :) XOXO

Whatta Man

I was like 9 when this song came out. My bestie would sing it all the time! And I thought she was so cool. When we got older and she had a boyfriend, she would joke around with him. She would sing part of the lyrics to him. Totally embarrass him. But every time they heard this song, they'd dance to it. Enzo used to laugh about it. And he thought she was hilarious. They were such a cute couple!

Me? I always wanted to find a man that would fit this song. I wanted a good man. A good man that loved me. A good family man. But a man. You know, that would take care of me. In every way. Someone that would tell me that he loved me. That would take the time to get to know me. Well, T is that man and so much more!

We were just hanging out the other night. And looking up old music on YouTube. I found this song, and it perfectly fits my hubby! T is everything I could have dreamt up. Yup!

I've finally got my mighty good man. And I'm loving every second of him! We are so in love. In every way, your typical Newlyweds. We're loving all of that too! This might just become my man's new song. :) XOXO

This Kiss

I'm so blissfully happy! T and I are enjoying ourselves so much! And I've honestly never been so in love. Life is absolutely amazing right now. :) And this song, it sums it all up. Just the way T loves me. His kiss, it just makes my entire day. One kiss from him, makes chills go all the way down my spine. And makes my toes curl. He's that amazing! XOXO

Mini Honeymoon

Well, we're almost to our "Mini Honeymoon" destination. Because of T's schedule, we're not going on our honeymoon until July. But we have a little bit of downtime this week. So we decided to take a mini vacation to a sandy beach!

In a few hours, you might just find us laying out on the sand. Oh, I can't wait! If not, well, we are on our "Mini Honeymoon." So who knows where we'll be. But I'll try to keep in touch. XOXO

With My Love

Don't mind us, we're spending a few days in the sun. T has to be back to work on Thursday. So we're enjoying a mini trip/honeymoon. So exciting to know that I'm now his wife! And that he's my hubby. Well, if you don't mind, I'm going to go enjoy the beautiful beach. And my hubby! :) XOXO

We're Married!!!

Yes, it's true! Last night, T and I officially became Mr. and Mrs. M!!! It was such a magical night. Everything was perfect. And now, I get to spend the rest of my life with the man I love!

The guys were running a little late last night. But they called ahead of time to let us know. So no big deal. I don't think I ever mentioned this. But they had to work yesterday. And today. But last night was truly the best wedding date, that we could come up with, until the summer. But in the end, it all worked out perfectly!

T and I had a beautiful ceremony. It was amazing. My bestie arranged for the Chapel to be decorated so nice. With gorgeous flowers. And lots of candles. It was everything I could have ever asked for! T looked so handsome. He had on his tux. And honestly, I don't think I've ever seen a more handsome man! I cried the entire time I walked down the aisle. :) My hubby also cried. And W, he looked cute in his little dog tuxedo. :) Yes, our dog was in our wedding!

With a little bit of creativity, we were able to get "The Guy" into and out of the Chapel undetected. Because that might have been a bit of trouble for all of us. The wedding party took some gorgeous pictures in front of the fountains. Very quickly! And we all went to the reception.

It was beautiful! Perfect. Like a fairytale. Just knowing that my hubby and I are going to be married and together forever, that was all I needed. But this reception was amazing! The food was so good. I swear, I've never eaten food that was so yummy! Our cake was amazing too! And yes, we couldn't resist it! We smashed cake into each other's faces. I swear, I still have icing in my ear. :) But it was so much fun. Sometime last week, we had agreed to not make a mess. But I just couldn't resist. And my hubby thought it was so much fun too!

The music was so good too! What good entertainment we got! I loved dancing to our song. And I'm pretty sure T enjoyed it too! We all danced well into the night! I forgot all about the fact that my wedding dress arrived just hours before our wedding. That our families weren't there with us. And that my hubby would be working today. I was just living in the moment!

I also got to meet C. My new sister-in-law. She is amazing! And oh so sweet! I hope that we get the opportunity to become best friends. Because she is so special. T cried when he saw his sister. And they hugged for such a long time. I'm so glad that she was able to come to our wedding. :)

Everything was so perfect! The reception was just as beautiful as our ceremony. So many beautiful flowers and candles. I felt like I was in a fairytale! But honestly, it would have been just as perfect at a court house with a justice of the peace. Just was long as I had T with me. :) All of our friends enjoyed themselves so much! And we definitely celebrated until the early hours of the morning. Then, well us Newlyweds headed to our "Honeymoon Suite" to enjoy a little bit of married life!

T had to leave a little while ago. To go to work. But we enjoyed breakfast in bed together. And although he has to work, we have a lifetime to share with one another. Tonight, we're headed off to a few days in the tropics! We'll do some more celebrating then. But right now, this new wife needs to get up and get ready. I'm going to go hangout with my hubby! XOXO

Going to the Chapel of Love

Today is the day! I still can't believe it. Tonight, I become Mrs. M. T's wifey. And he'll be my hubby! :)

I'm so excited! I owe so much of this to my bestie and her guy. They've done so much to help me and T get our wedding planned. And yes, our guys are working today. But tonight, T and I say our "I Dos!"

It's not a big event. Just friends. T's sister C. And lots of co-workers/friends. Unfortunately, neither of our families will be here. But we're not going to let that get us down. This is our day. And I can't wait to be married to my love. I can see the 2 of us growing old together. What a great life we have ahead of us!

Now I should probably start getting ready for the big day. I never realized how much went into getting ready for a walk down the aisle. :) XOXO

Our Families

We're now days away from becoming Mr. and Mrs. M! I've never been more excited or sure of anything in my life. Ever!

But there is still some sadness in my heart. Mostly because our families are not going to be at our wedding. Isn't that what weddings are all about? Celebrating with your family and friends. We have so many friends that our taking time out, to come see us get married. So many people making the trip. But not our families...

I don't know much of T's background with his family. Just that they're not close. And they don't think he should be getting married. I've never met any of them. And they're refusing to come to the wedding. It's sad.

With one exception. His sister, C. She will be coming to our wedding. I wish I would have known sooner. I would have LOVED for her to be in our wedding. But it was a last minute decision. And to be honest, I'm just excited that T will have someone there. :)

As for my family. Well, to make it a short story, it's dysfunctional. My dad left when I was little. My parents' marriage was never good. And 1 day, they just got divorced. Now that I think about it, it was probably the best thing they could have done for my little brother and me. But our dad, he was never really a dad. I never got along with him. And out of his 3 kids, well he was a dad to none of us.

My mom, she's just bitter. She blames the whole wreck of her life on me. Because she got pregnant with me and felt the need, to have to marry my dad. Her life was apparently never the same. And she blames me for it. As soon as I turned 18, she wanted me out of the house. That's how much she hates me. There has never been anything I could do to change her mind. No matter how much I love her.

And when she found out that T and I were dating, and later engaged, that was it. She completely wrote me off. And threatened the entire family. Because she pretty much rules the family, they all listen to her. And that means I haven't talked to my little brother and my grandma in months! My little brother and grandma would be the only 2 people from my family, that I'd really want at my wedding. But I have no way to contact them.

It really is a sad situation. But there's nothing that I can really do to change it. It's completely out of my hands. But on my wedding day, I'm going to feel a sense of sadness, just because these 2 people that I love so much, can't be there. I know, they are always in my heart. But it would be nice to share this very important day with all of them. And I would like nothing more than for T to meet them. XOXO

From this Moment

From this moment...that's the way I feel about T. I LOVE him so much! We've been trying to decide on a "Wedding Song." And we just hadn't been able to come up with one. Until we heard "From this Moment."

The other night when we were going home, we were searching for some good music. And the radio landed on a country station. This song was playing. And it made me cry. I knew right then, this was went to be our song.

The words are perfect. Everything I feel about T, is said in this song. The passion and emotion, it's all perfect. I never believed in love before I met T. I never thought I'd get married. But God made T for me. He knew I needed a man to love. A man who would love me. God answers all kinds of prayers. Even the ones that we don't pray for.

With all the stress of our wedding, this song just swept it all away. Because the only important part of our wedding day, and the moment when we become man and wife, is having T love me. I'm blessed. T is the love of my life. And I love him so much. There is not a single thing in the world, that I wouldn't do for him.

T is the very 1st person I have ever completely trusted. He has my heart in his hands. And everything good in my life, he has done for me. I've never loved anyone more than I love him. And I can't wait until we get to dance to this song, as man and wife. XOXO

One Step Closer

We're one step closer to this...being man and wife! And now, I'm really starting to get excited. Forget about how stressed out I was. My friends have really come to my rescue! I have a wedding dress. And my bestie has a "Maid of Honor" dress. All because of our amazing friends. Oh, and my bestie's boyfriend (aka The Guy.)

We went and ordered them at a very expensive designer's shop. She is working feverishly on both dresses. And they should be ready on time. I really do hope so. In 9 days, I'll be married!

My bestie has also been working hard on our reception. She knows the owners of where we're having our reception. And they are doing such a great job with everything. My only request was yummy food, and some pretty flowers. But after seeing everything that my bestie has already done, it's going to be magical.

All the flowers are ordered. The food decisions have been made. A delicious cake is being made. Dresses are being made as we speak. The guys have their suits. We booked the Chapel. And T and I even managed to buy each other's rings. Yes, my bestie is holding onto T's for me. :)

So I'm not so stressed anymore. I've never been the type that dreamt about a "Fairytale" wedding. I never wanted my dad to walk me down the aisle. In fact, I never thought I'd be getting married. It's crazy, how when you meet the right man, everything just changes. And the only really important part of this wedding, is marrying my love, T. XOXO