Today is the Day

Dear Baby Girl,

I just have a feeling, that today is the day. The day that we get to meet. And I get to hold you for the very first time. That makes me so excited!

The last few months, they've been magical. Feeling you inside of me. Kicking around. Loving me. And I hope you know how much I love you. I'd do anything for you baby girl. I mean anything!

It's crazy. When I found out about you, I was scared. So scared. I wasn't sure I could do this. I didn't know if I'd be a good Mommy. But I've tried really hard. I've taken so many classes. And tried to make all the right decisions. Now all I can do is wait for you.

I love you so much! There are so many people that love you little girl! Your Uncle Barracuda thinks you're the entire world. The reason that the sun rises and sets. Really he does. He wants to be everything that your Daddy isn't. He wants to love and protect you. It's crazy how this week, today, he has to be across the country working. But he's trying to get home as quickly as he can!

And your Godparents. They love you so much. There is not a thing in the world, that they wouldn't do for us. I know this. My bestie, we've been through a lot. Our lives have been crazy. But through it all, we've had each other. And I know, she would do anything for you. She's going to be your Godmother. And I know that she is going to be amazing at loving you! Your Godfather, he's so excited to meet you too! It's so incredible to watch them both, when we get to see you. They love you so much! It's hard that everyone is away right now. But they love you! And they're trying to get hom before you are born.

If this is your birth date, you were born on an incredible day. 10-10-10. It's also your Godfather's birthday. I know that would send him over the moon, to have you born on his birthday! I just have this feeling, a good feeling, that you're coming today. I pray that our labor and delivery is safe. And that you are born healthy. Your Mommy and W love you so much! We can't wait to bring you home. To our home, to your nursery, to start our lives together.

XOXO Your Mommy and W, Your Favorite Dog. :)

Happy Birthday Guy!

A very special birthday going out to The Guy. Who happens to be one of my favorite people in the whole world! And he will also be Baby C's Godfather. Today is his birthday. Yes, on this very special day, 10-10-10. How cool is that?

And when I asked him, what he wanted for his birthday, what did he say? A cake? A new hunting thing? A car? No. He wanted Baby C to be born today. And for her to be healthy! How cool is that? Well, Guy, you might just get your wish. I'm pretty sure that Baby C is coming. Maybe be midnight!

Have a Happy Birthday! Enjoy the day. Enjoy it with my bestie. Don't worry about racing home tonight. You guys will get here, when you get here. Enjoy yourselves. What amazing friends you both are. But Guy, you've been incredible to me. One of the only people I could rely on. And you love me and my little girl so much. We can't forget how happy you make my bestie! Thank you! For all of those things, I hope all of your dreams come true! XOXO

Polyvore

My contractions are all over the place! Crazy hard and strong for about 90 minutes, then nothing. I didn't sleep much last night. But, I took advantage today. And I took a really long nap! I can tell, we're getting close. :)

But while I've been wasting some time here, just trying to get Baby C ready, I found Polyvore. And I signed up. Here's my page. Yes, I played for a few hours. So much fun! I wish I would have signed up a long time ago!

This could be a really fun thing to play with. You know, when I start losing weight. I'm not good at putting outfits together. But I think this could help. If not, it's just fun to play around. It's like paper dolls for grown ups! XOXO

41 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

We are 1 week "late." I'm not stressed. Neither is our doctor. But I am anxious! I can't wait to meet you. I know. For 41 weeks, you've been inside me, growing. But I want to hold you. I want to look into your eyes. To kiss your cheeks. And I want to just be your Mommy.

Today, our doctor scrapped my membranes. It hurt. But it was worth it. I've felt a few contractions since. And this is supposed to start things moving. You know, in the right direction. That means we could meet sometime this weekend! Now that makes me excited!

Everything is ready for you. Your nursery. Our home. W. Your Mommy. Your Nana and
Nono. Your Uncle Barracuda. We're all ready! We're just waiting for you to come. Your Nono wants to know if you can come on Sunday. A cool date! But that is all up to you!

The only thing that I want, is for you and me to be safe and healthy. We have years and years to be together. But for right now, I want you to be healthy. And safe. So if you have to "cook" for another week, I'm OK with it. Just take as much time as you need!

XOXO Your Mommy

Oh My!

I'm closer to having Baby C. But not really "ready" yet. At least that is what my doctor told me. I had another "Non Stress Test" yesterday. And both Baby C and I are doing good. We're just not ready for the "Birthing Process" yet.

So my doctor gave me a list of things to do. All of which, I've been doing. You know, exercise, spicy food, relaxing. But nothing is helping. I've also tried more "natural" things. Like different herbs and teas.

The only thing I haven't tried is sex. Because I'm in the middle of a divorce. I'm pretty sure that T hates me. So that would just be stupid. And well, who else is there? I'm almost 41 weeks pregnant. Not much of a catch...

Anyway, I watched this video today on YouTube. I think I might have scared myself. So much so, that I'm OK if my daughter decides to wait until 42 weeks to make her arrival. Do they seriously have to cut you? I hope not!

I know. I went to classes. They showed us videos. But I guess it didn't feel "real" yet. Because I wasn't days away from giving birth. But you know what? Whatever it takes to have a healthy Baby C, I'm more than willing to do. I just want my little girl to be healthy. XOXO

I Wish

I wish that I was really crafty. That I could sit and make Baby C a bunch of hair bows. But I'm not crafty. Not at all!

I want some of these really colorful ones.

And some big ones to put on a headband. These are the cutest!

These ones are really adorable too! I like how the flowers are so big!

So because I'm not crafty, and believe me, I've tried to be! I'm going to be ordering some more of these for my little girl. I'm sure Baby C is going to look so cute wearing them! Let's hope that I don't break the bank. Because I want to buy 1 of every color. :) XOXO

Cute Dolls

It's Monday. Yes, I'm still pregnant. And I went to the doctor today. That meant no work. I'm also no closer to having Baby C today, then I was on Friday. But we're working on that. I went on a long walk. And had a very spicy lunch.

But I wanted to share something with you. I recently found these cute little dolls. I found them via twitter. And then, I found the cute little shop where they're sold! Just look at them!



And you can have them specially made. As in, to resemble your child. :) I'm really considering ordering one of these adorable dolls. :)



I really like this one. It's a "Snuggling Doll." And I think it will be perfect for Baby C! But I'm going to wait until after she is born to order her one. Why? Because I want to order one with her hair color and eye color. :) Oh, I can't wait until she is here! XOXO

King of Queens

Now that I'm officially past my due date, I've been trying to keep myself busy doing other things. Like long walks during my lunch and after work. Yes, I walk until it gets dark. Then I come home and eat dinner. And sit and wonder. Wondering when my little girl is going to get here.

So I was flipping through the TV, I saw, the King of Queens. I LOVED this show! So I sat and watched...um 3 episodes. It was great. I laughed so hard. And I'm pretty sure that Baby C loved it too!

Any suggestions on how to go into labor? Just wondering what your thoughts are on the subject. XOXO

40 Weeks

Dear Baby Girl,

Today is our due date. And you're just not ready to come yet. I'm OK with that. Our doctor said neither of us is ready. We might have another 2 weeks to go. But I hope that I don't have to wait that long.

We had a crazy week. I'm sorry that I get so upset when we're around your Daddy. I never wanted things to be this way. But you know what, I've learned that I can't control these things. I hope your Daddy wakes up. And decided to come see you being born. I think that is something very special. Something that would start to build your relationship together. But I'm not in charge of that.

And your Uncle Barracuda has definitely been picking up the pieces for us. He's been great. Part of me wants to let him really love and take care of us. But I want to protect you. I don't want you to get hurt. So we are just going to have to wait this out. I know he loves us. But I'm not sure if I'm ready for that kind of "Romantic Love" again.

All week, I've been going into your nursery. Sitting in my chair and looking at your crib. I can't wait until you are sleeping in there. I want to sit and read to you. To hold you. And to love you. Baby Girl, I just can't wait to meet you! I'm ready when you are!

XOXO Your Mommy