Going to the Chapel of Love

Today is the day! I still can't believe it. Tonight, I become Mrs. M. T's wifey. And he'll be my hubby! :)

I'm so excited! I owe so much of this to my bestie and her guy. They've done so much to help me and T get our wedding planned. And yes, our guys are working today. But tonight, T and I say our "I Dos!"

It's not a big event. Just friends. T's sister C. And lots of co-workers/friends. Unfortunately, neither of our families will be here. But we're not going to let that get us down. This is our day. And I can't wait to be married to my love. I can see the 2 of us growing old together. What a great life we have ahead of us!

Now I should probably start getting ready for the big day. I never realized how much went into getting ready for a walk down the aisle. :) XOXO

Our Families

We're now days away from becoming Mr. and Mrs. M! I've never been more excited or sure of anything in my life. Ever!

But there is still some sadness in my heart. Mostly because our families are not going to be at our wedding. Isn't that what weddings are all about? Celebrating with your family and friends. We have so many friends that our taking time out, to come see us get married. So many people making the trip. But not our families...

I don't know much of T's background with his family. Just that they're not close. And they don't think he should be getting married. I've never met any of them. And they're refusing to come to the wedding. It's sad.

With one exception. His sister, C. She will be coming to our wedding. I wish I would have known sooner. I would have LOVED for her to be in our wedding. But it was a last minute decision. And to be honest, I'm just excited that T will have someone there. :)

As for my family. Well, to make it a short story, it's dysfunctional. My dad left when I was little. My parents' marriage was never good. And 1 day, they just got divorced. Now that I think about it, it was probably the best thing they could have done for my little brother and me. But our dad, he was never really a dad. I never got along with him. And out of his 3 kids, well he was a dad to none of us.

My mom, she's just bitter. She blames the whole wreck of her life on me. Because she got pregnant with me and felt the need, to have to marry my dad. Her life was apparently never the same. And she blames me for it. As soon as I turned 18, she wanted me out of the house. That's how much she hates me. There has never been anything I could do to change her mind. No matter how much I love her.

And when she found out that T and I were dating, and later engaged, that was it. She completely wrote me off. And threatened the entire family. Because she pretty much rules the family, they all listen to her. And that means I haven't talked to my little brother and my grandma in months! My little brother and grandma would be the only 2 people from my family, that I'd really want at my wedding. But I have no way to contact them.

It really is a sad situation. But there's nothing that I can really do to change it. It's completely out of my hands. But on my wedding day, I'm going to feel a sense of sadness, just because these 2 people that I love so much, can't be there. I know, they are always in my heart. But it would be nice to share this very important day with all of them. And I would like nothing more than for T to meet them. XOXO

From this Moment

From this moment...that's the way I feel about T. I LOVE him so much! We've been trying to decide on a "Wedding Song." And we just hadn't been able to come up with one. Until we heard "From this Moment."

The other night when we were going home, we were searching for some good music. And the radio landed on a country station. This song was playing. And it made me cry. I knew right then, this was went to be our song.

The words are perfect. Everything I feel about T, is said in this song. The passion and emotion, it's all perfect. I never believed in love before I met T. I never thought I'd get married. But God made T for me. He knew I needed a man to love. A man who would love me. God answers all kinds of prayers. Even the ones that we don't pray for.

With all the stress of our wedding, this song just swept it all away. Because the only important part of our wedding day, and the moment when we become man and wife, is having T love me. I'm blessed. T is the love of my life. And I love him so much. There is not a single thing in the world, that I wouldn't do for him.

T is the very 1st person I have ever completely trusted. He has my heart in his hands. And everything good in my life, he has done for me. I've never loved anyone more than I love him. And I can't wait until we get to dance to this song, as man and wife. XOXO

One Step Closer

We're one step closer to this...being man and wife! And now, I'm really starting to get excited. Forget about how stressed out I was. My friends have really come to my rescue! I have a wedding dress. And my bestie has a "Maid of Honor" dress. All because of our amazing friends. Oh, and my bestie's boyfriend (aka The Guy.)

We went and ordered them at a very expensive designer's shop. She is working feverishly on both dresses. And they should be ready on time. I really do hope so. In 9 days, I'll be married!

My bestie has also been working hard on our reception. She knows the owners of where we're having our reception. And they are doing such a great job with everything. My only request was yummy food, and some pretty flowers. But after seeing everything that my bestie has already done, it's going to be magical.

All the flowers are ordered. The food decisions have been made. A delicious cake is being made. Dresses are being made as we speak. The guys have their suits. We booked the Chapel. And T and I even managed to buy each other's rings. Yes, my bestie is holding onto T's for me. :)

So I'm not so stressed anymore. I've never been the type that dreamt about a "Fairytale" wedding. I never wanted my dad to walk me down the aisle. In fact, I never thought I'd be getting married. It's crazy, how when you meet the right man, everything just changes. And the only really important part of this wedding, is marrying my love, T. XOXO

No Wedding Dress

Did I know when we picked our wedding date that this month was going to be hard? Yes. T is working almost nonstop. I have no real clue about anything wedding related. I've never planned anything. And well, I'm beyond overwhelmed!

12 days from now, I will be getting married. I have no dress. I haven't picked out a dress for my bestie. I've been to the beautiful dress shops in the area. We even flew to NYC. Nothing!

I know we're getting married in Vegas. And it's going to be small. But seriously, I want a nice dress. Not a huge ballgown. But a nice dress.

The guys are working in CA this week. So my bestie, some other friends, and I are heading out early. Because I need to find my dress. Fingers crossed that I won't be walking down the aisle naked. XOXO

Happy Valentine's Day T!!!

I just wanted to wish T a very Happy Valentine's Day! He really is the love of my life. And in a few short weeks, he's going to be my hubby. :)

T makes my world a complete place. and I love him so very much! My day is not complete without a hug and kiss from him. T you make me smile by just being you. I promise that for the rest of our lives, I will try and make you just as happy!

Now, I'm off to figure out a yummy surprise meal for T. This should be fun and interesting! But I just want to spoil him today. Just to show him how much I love him. :) XOXO

Cherry Crunch Dessert

I know. I'm supposed to be planning my wedding. That's in 17 days! But I was looking for something to make T for Valentine's Day. Because I'm out of ideas. But Betty has saved the day! Doesn't this dessert look yummy? And since T is working on V-day, I wanted to make it a little more special for him. I'm going to try this out. First, I'm going to try and make it with my bestie. Then, I'm making it for my love. I'm hoping for the best. :) XOXO

Resistance Bands

Now that I'm 20 days away from my wedding, I've really been working out more. Trying to lose some more weight. And I had been talking to a friend about trying to lose some weight.

She mentioned Resistance Bands. Especially to workout my legs. I hope they help my thighs a bit. I've been losing weight. So far, I've lost 16 lbs since New Year's Day. But my legs are still a bit of a problem. I hope these work. My friend, she gave me hers to use. Today I'm going to try them out. XOXO

I Really Want Some...

I just want to curl up with a big mug of hot cocoa. Too bad I'm trying to be healthy. And I need to stay on this diet. Because some hot cocoa would be really nice right now. I can already taste that chocolatey goodness. I better just bundle up and go for my run. Or I may be regretting this in a few hours... XOXO

Going to the Chapel...

Sweet Jesus! T and I are engaged! Yes people, read that. ENGAGED! It happened last night. He planned this amazing night out. It was my birthday yesterday. And before I knew it, he was telling me how much he loved me. Pulled out a diamond ring, the size of the moon, and asked me to marry him.

I cried. I shook my head yes. I did everything I could to tell him yes. But my voice just wouldn't come out. But he got the idea. We sealed the deal with a kiss. Early this morning, we even set a wedding date! February 28, 2009!!!

I know. It's crazy. Even I know that. But his work schedule doesn't allow for much time off. And well, we'll be in Vegas that weekend. With our best friends. So we're getting married in less than a month! Honestly, I couldn't be more excited. T is the man of my dreams. I love him so much! And I can't wait to be his wifey. Now to plan a wedding! :) XOXO